The CPEP, or the psychiatric emergency room, at night in a large hospital in a large city is, as you would imagine, full of interesting people, myself being one of them in my current state of mind. I remember walking a lot. Around the room. There were about ten beds pushed up against a wall …
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The Night of the Absolute Center, Part 5
About This Blog Exactly what happened after this mental vision quest is a bit of a blur… I was starting to have a very difficult time keeping my thoughts routed in reality… I remember very vaguely trying the hardest I could to explain what I was experiencing to everyone present including my wife, my sister, …
The Night of the Absolute Center, Part 4
About This Blog In writing about myself as somehow “middle of the road” in life, I instantly become aware of the myriad different misconceptions there could be about me when I say this… To narrow it down a bit, I by no means think I think I am necessarily “average” or that my life is …
Anger
I’m angry a lot… I mean, I think I was generally angry since I was a kid and my parents split up, but this is different. My anger now has a very clear flashpoint and focus, and it mostly has to do with what happened to me in that place. For two weeks I was …
Let’s Try This Again
Two years ago at this time I was in a mental facility after having one of the strangest experiences in my life… unfortunately for me and my family, it was about to get much stranger. I have spent the last two years recovering from that experience. I have been since diagnosed with PTSD from the …
The Night of the Absolute Center, Part 3
About This Blog To summarize the last two parts, on the night of December 30, 2017, I started to undergo a strange mental experience that came (seemingly) from nowhere. The sense I had was that my own reality and current sense of time were splitting apart, and I was becoming more and more confused and …
Trapped in Hell – Part 2: The Escape
About This Blog I remember getting out of the room, after what felt like days, even weeks or months. At first I wandered back and forth between the door of my room and an adjacent door that led to the stairwell. I could see it led to a stairwell through glass with wires in it. …
Meeting Connie
About This Blog Four days after the exact middle- The great misunderstanding begins. I didn’t sleep well. I was agitated, confused. I wanted to leave. I was getting more and more frustrated by the hour – I couldn’t completely explain why, though I felt I didn’t belong where I was and I had the sense …
Lessons Learned – Trapped in Hell
About This Blog I honestly could not have gotten through my own trauma as much as I have to date without the dedicated help I have received from well-qualified mental health professionals since the event. I realize daily that I am still very much recovering from that trauma, and I honestly suspect I might be …
Mental Healthcare Can Do Better – Introduction
About This Blog There is a part of me that is absolutely furious all the time about what happened to me in January, 2018… a part of me that is essentially screaming at the top of my lungs, all day and all night, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. It often makes everything …
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The Absolute Center of Everything 