About This Blog Exactly what happened after this mental vision quest is a bit of a blur… I was starting to have a very difficult time keeping my thoughts routed in reality… I remember very vaguely trying the hardest I could to explain what I was experiencing to everyone present including my wife, my sister, …
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The Night of the Absolute Center, Part 4
About This Blog In writing about myself as somehow “middle of the road” in life, I instantly become aware of the myriad different misconceptions there could be about me when I say this… To narrow it down a bit, I by no means think I think I am necessarily “average” or that my life is …
The Night of the Absolute Center, Part 3
About This Blog To summarize the last two parts, on the night of December 30, 2017, I started to undergo a strange mental experience that came (seemingly) from nowhere. The sense I had was that my own reality and current sense of time were splitting apart, and I was becoming more and more confused and …
Trapped in Hell – Part 2: The Escape
About This Blog I remember getting out of the room, after what felt like days, even weeks or months. At first I wandered back and forth between the door of my room and an adjacent door that led to the stairwell. I could see it led to a stairwell through glass with wires in it. …
Meeting Connie
About This Blog Four days after the exact middle- The great misunderstanding begins. I didn’t sleep well. I was agitated, confused. I wanted to leave. I was getting more and more frustrated by the hour – I couldn’t completely explain why, though I felt I didn’t belong where I was and I had the sense …
Lessons Learned – Trapped in Hell
About This Blog I honestly could not have gotten through my own trauma as much as I have to date without the dedicated help I have received from well-qualified mental health professionals since the event. I realize daily that I am still very much recovering from that trauma, and I honestly suspect I might be …
Mental Healthcare Can Do Better – Introduction
About This Blog There is a part of me that is absolutely furious all the time about what happened to me in January, 2018… a part of me that is essentially screaming at the top of my lungs, all day and all night, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. It often makes everything …
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The Night of the Absolute Center, Part 2
About This Blog When I left the bathroom at my sister’s place on the night of December 30, 2017, I had the distinct feeling that nothing would ever be the same again. In more ways than I could possibly imagine or guess at the time, I was right. I decided I would go to the …
Why this Blog Exists
About This Blog So, the question on my mind, and perhaps on anyone’s mind who might choose to read this blog, is this: Why would a perfectly sane person (to my knowledge) who is a functioning member of society with plenty of other more important things to worry about, want to dedicate an entire portion …
The Night of the Absolute Center, Part 1
About This Blog Up until the most intense and unexplainable experience of my entire life, I felt like I had a certain level of control over what happened to me in this world. There have been certain things along the way in my life that made me feel somewhat out of control or helpless at …
The Absolute Center of Everything 